by the way...

The whole time I've known you, I have wanted fairy tale land for you too, but the problem has been, I don't know what your fairy tale is....so often I want to ask you if you are happy, b/c I don't know...I don't know what it is that makes you happy, and what it is that makes you unhappy...I get the most scared when I can't tell. B/c I would chew off one of my fingers, to make you happy...only I'm afraid after I did, you would say...the only thing that made me happy was that I had nicer fingers than Alex did, and now Alex doesn't have any fingers, so I can't be happy. But if you ever have an idea, and you want a push in some direction...just tell me the direction and I will do all that I can.