Hello...this is Company

dear misery,
you my dear are not doing something you ever wanted to do, don't find personally challenging, you aren't currently aspiring to any new goals that I know of, and wonder whether that is making you unhappy...I feel as though I am talking to myself. Of course being unfulfilled in something you spend more than 80% of your time doing must decrease your self-respect, self-interest, and self-motivation. Your self-respect is something that is constantly going to be reassessing itself, and because your growth is in large part nothing more than what you do, to the extent you aren't achieving anything that you are proud of, very unlikely to be rolling in the self respect. Similarly, self-interest...you have decided to take the monumental task of paying off your student loans...because you aren't developing any additional thinking abilities, or other such skill in which you could be more introspective about, you simply rehash the same question...does this job suck? Yes, but I'm still in it, so maybe the suckiness is really me...all of which is simply ridiculous, but understandable. Finally self-motivation, you are so mired in the shittiness which is your day to day job, (I feel I can say that as I have had the same job), that there is probably only enough energy there to wake up and continue. Without starting new things, or having larger sources of energy, I think it is obvious that self-motivation at this point will be hard come by which leads again to a loss of self respect. So yes...I think it is your job that sucks, but unfortunately, it has the negative counter effect of reflecting such suckiness in the draining out of your life energies.

Did I mention my brother today asked me how you were, and said at the wedding, he thought you seemed really sad and tired and energy-less? We need to fix this little trtl...I can't have you being a sad energy less trtl, you need something. Go see a doctor and tell them to fix you....