The Purple Pill

So one must ask the question...particularly when one works with product liability...whether symptoms are accurately diagnosed, or simply overly diagnosed due to the widespread dissemination of symptoms which could in fact be anything or nothing. Case in point...today I settled down for a cat nap around 4:00, (despite waking up at 9:30, yes) but I couldn't sleep...why you may ask? Because I wondered whether I needed to sleep because I was depressed, or whether I was just tired. When I was a kid I would not like taking naps and growing up, this never changed. I didn't like taking naps, b/c I was afraid the world was going to revolve without me, and I never wanted such a thing as that to happen, so in the event tiredness would overcome me, at the first opportunity, my eyes would fly open and there I would be with a slightly sickened-panicky feel wondering if life had passed me by and whether or not I could get it back. Fast forward to now...I still get the panicky feeling that life might pass me by, but unfortunately due to TV, which I have been forced to watch or listen to, now I think an afternoon catnap is a sign of depression. What's more, this thought makes me depressed...not knowing whether I am depressed or not. Which means that my nap is a complete waste of time, and alas....in fact probably counter-productive as it leads me to worrying.